Day 2

So things look the same. Still haven’t eaten since sunday night.  Tyler is going to lunch with me on wednesday and that should be interesting. I saw some friends which made things a lot easier. This morning was awful. I woke up crying. Asking God what i should do and where do i go from here. MY whole body aches like when you get a bad cold and you hide under the covers because you’re too sore to move. Every other thought about him is whether he’s lying to me or not. I just hope not. Im going to a movie with friends…maybe that’ll help too. the advice i have received so far is to 1) eat a lot of ice cream 2) do not ever be alone 3) don’t watch chick flicks 4) the more time you have to think about him, the worse you shall feel. everything seems to be true. My friends that have had darker pasts than me can attest to what happens after a break up when you isolate yourself so I’m going to avoid it at all costs. So now I’m typing this, still feel sick and i just want things to skip ahead to where we are just friends. where we can just laugh together like we used to. I don’t see why that can’t happen…i believe that the way i will get over him is when i find someone new. That gives me hope in the future. As a joke I’m going to write a list of things i want and deserve in a guy. Characteristics i prefer. ill post that later. anyway wish me luck nameless face on tumblr…